February 12/2019

A year ago today I was depressed because I had a deformed chest from the emergency surgery 1/16/2018 . I had an infection from the hardware that imploded my plastic surgeon said to me. My breathing and heart suffered during the operation and I had to learn to live with what was left of my physical body. My son was in a similarly emergency surgery  to his ankle at Swedish Medical Hospital  in Denver CO. I could do nothing but pray for both of us.

My prayers were heard from the source that created all life and today in the present I have learned that depression is only temporary with a belief of self-worth . There is no medication legal or illegal that will eradicate the depression. There is only me,myself and I taking a path by navigating my creative scenes for my benefit of “Love” .

Valentines Day this year is two days from today and I am having a party at my home for some friends that “Love me for me ” . I have help here in my home to help me with the preparations and the others that come will help with the clean up. I do sleep and rest during the day as needed. It is not what others think I should do with my time I have left. It is only what I think I should do with my precious time and energy that matters to me.

I have a team of health care providers that provide all the necessary services for my safety. I am grateful to still be alive even though my doctors keep saying I have terminal cancer.

Terminal cancer is the beginning of life for me. It is not the end of my life.